It's raining again.
The sky has grayed over completely, it's sprinkling as we speak. The mounds of mud in the pasture have increased 10 fold. The horses sink knee deep in spots. The flood has subsided somewhat in the creek.
My vertigo continues. I am still having difficulty moving my arms above my head and looking up simultaneously. I am sure the mild nystagmus contributes somewhat. It's been nearly a year now, and the relief I have been promised has yet to show itself. So, I have come to a very hard decision: I think we are going to have to find a home for the horses. Only the most kind & loving one will do.
I know we saved Suzi's life - I KNOW we did.
The sky has grayed over completely, it's sprinkling as we speak. The mounds of mud in the pasture have increased 10 fold. The horses sink knee deep in spots. The flood has subsided somewhat in the creek.
My vertigo continues. I am still having difficulty moving my arms above my head and looking up simultaneously. I am sure the mild nystagmus contributes somewhat. It's been nearly a year now, and the relief I have been promised has yet to show itself. So, I have come to a very hard decision: I think we are going to have to find a home for the horses. Only the most kind & loving one will do.
I know we saved Suzi's life - I KNOW we did.
She looks amazing. To see the skeletal version of her that came to us in July makes my heart swell with pride, because I see where she was and how far she has come.
I have made a difference in someone's life.
I think about that, and I think about the few lives I know I have touched. Obviously, many, many furry & finned lives. Also turtles, if you count our two here and the numbers I have moved out of roads.
I also think, though, that there are at least a few people whom I have helped over the years. I think about my ESL teaching - working with international, corporate bigwigs & dignitaries and their families. I think about my at-risk tutoring and the lives I touched there. I think about the small, private colleges where I taught: hating every moment but making a difference nonetheless. Even at University of Cincinnati. The few students I keep in contact with from there do still remind me I was their favorite. Or one of their favorites.
But, I think about losses, too. And I think about how I feel today - gray, lonely, empty - still seeking fulfillment. Still pining over things long gone.
"It's raining again
Oh no, my love's at an end.
Oh no, it's raining again
Too bad I'm losing a friend."
Seriously? ANOTHER Supertramp song? I don't even like them!
It's that rainy day feeling again. Time to get in the shower and wash it away.
I think about that, and I think about the few lives I know I have touched. Obviously, many, many furry & finned lives. Also turtles, if you count our two here and the numbers I have moved out of roads.
I also think, though, that there are at least a few people whom I have helped over the years. I think about my ESL teaching - working with international, corporate bigwigs & dignitaries and their families. I think about my at-risk tutoring and the lives I touched there. I think about the small, private colleges where I taught: hating every moment but making a difference nonetheless. Even at University of Cincinnati. The few students I keep in contact with from there do still remind me I was their favorite. Or one of their favorites.
But, I think about losses, too. And I think about how I feel today - gray, lonely, empty - still seeking fulfillment. Still pining over things long gone.
"It's raining again
Oh no, my love's at an end.
Oh no, it's raining again
Too bad I'm losing a friend."
Seriously? ANOTHER Supertramp song? I don't even like them!
It's that rainy day feeling again. Time to get in the shower and wash it away.
am feeling your sadness.. sorry to see the horses go..that will be so difficult for you !!! wish I could wipe away your illness... and your sorrow
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for you kindness. I can see the shine in some little girl's eyes as she opens the barn door each morning. That's what I hope for them.
ReplyDeleteI have to realize my true purpose is rescue. Save and release . . .